vertigo. blah.

i'm sitting here in my lounge alone moaning to myself. i'm stuck at home alone on a saturday with vertigo. i already had plans for today to bring my kids and my mum in law out for breakfast and then shopping at tesco, lunch and then visit some friends who's had a new baby. by strangely at 6am this morning i woke up from sleep and without even opening my eyes i felt very dizzy. i managed to go back to sleep but when my daughter came into my room at 7am i woke up, opened my eyes and the whole room started spinning and i felt very very nauseus. i picked myself up to go throw up but of course waking up with an empty stomach meant that there was nothing to throw up. i started breaking cold sweat. i started to panic and called a doctor friend. was i having stroke? (cos i have a problem with high blood pressure, you see). told him the problem, he said there's only 1 thing in the world that will cause the room to spin, a problem to the middle ear.

i had no flu, no fever, no pain, what caused it? i scrambled to get a hold of someone to bring me to the hospital. my little was brilliant. she helped me by bringing everything i needed and then just did not disturb me but went to do some coloring. finally bro in law's girlfriend came to bring me to the hospital. and before leaving the house my girl gave me a cup of water to drink. she has such a sweet and sensitive spirit. then grandma came to get them since i couldn't take care of them today, what with everything spinning and all.

got a jab, which is helping me till now. i'm just praying that the spinning sensation won't come back again when the jab wears off. it was a very awful feeling. u can't do anything at all when the room spins, you lose all sense of balance and you feel like puking your insides out. but now i'm feeling miserable sitting all alone at home, feeling generally ill and without any appetite to eat. trying blogging just to distract my mind off the discomfort. not sure if it's working. husband's down south for a speaking engagement. feeling bad that i can't have a nice day with my kids. getting a little sleepy. going to try sleeping again.